Getting stuck

I used to have dreams. When i was in middle school i wanted to be a teacher, well the reasons for it is unknown. Later on it changed, when i was in high school i want to be a lecturer instead. The reasons, again is still unknown. This goes on until i went to college, that is when i totally lost all of my dreams.

I totally forgot my dreams as i kept on trying to survive my college life. I stressed out for half of my college life. Its not anyone else fault but me, i am being negative, thinking i cannot survive being away from my family and lived with strangers for those 4 years. I focused on surviving those college years till i lost a few thing that are precious to me and one of it is my dreams. I know its dumb to stressed over things that i never knew the outcome was, but i did it anyway.

I used to think that things will get better once i started working and then i can help my parents and head towards success, but it was all only my good thoughts of a teenager. Things also get rough and tougher. I was forced to work due to family’s financial problem, to add it up i am not even interested to the work i applied and working for at all.

Now it has been almost 3 years since i graduated, and i am still stuck inside and out. I have been trying to get my dreams back but its getting further and further away. I know these might seems like i am full of negativity inside my head but i am still hoping that one day i could again find my dreams and passion that i lost.

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